Tuesday, January 25, 2011

The details

I’m 12w today – due date is 8/9/11.

I’m not bleeding like I did with Emma, but there might be some complications. They’re keeping a close eye on me and we’re currently playing the “wait and see” game.

Emma is over the moon. She’ll tell anyone who asks about the baby in my belly and how it has to grow up to be big before it can come out. She’s pretty convinced it’s a girl, but I also think that in her mind every baby is a girl.

My brother and sister-in-law are expecting their first in June and I think my parents’ heads are going to burst with the thought of THREE grandbabies next year!
I have to say it’s much different being pregnant this time around. It’s wonderful to not bleed every day, but at the same time I can’t stop worrying. When I was pregnant with Emma I didn’t really understand all the different things that “could” happen, but now, thanks to a wonderful online preemie support circle, I know a million different things that could happen between now and August. I’m trying to stay positive, but I’m a worrier, and it’s hard not to think about those things. Before we made the decision to have a second child we made sure that we were both okay with another long stint of bed rest and a preemie again, and we are – it’s just different when you it’s a possibility instead of being blindsided by it (in both good and bad ways). We’re obviously hoping and praying for a VERY long pregnancy and my goal is to be huge and uncomfortable this summer J
I’m very lucky that I have an amazing doctor and that she’s watching me closely. She understands why I feel the way I do and was the one to suggest extra monitoring before I even had to ask. It’s nice to not feel so crazy when I see her.
Also, I feel huge. I know I have a LONG way to go, but I’m a lot bigger than I was last time. My body seemed to just give into pregnancy this time. I pee all night long, which I don’t remember starting this early. I’ve also been more sick, the toothbrush is not my friend, but I might be rounding a corner. I've also been exhausted and poor Emma is watching way more tv than normal (which she loves).
But, we're beyond thrilled and definitely have high hopes for this pregnancy (that's a whole different post)!

11w6d. Sorry you can't see my face, I wasn't feeling it last night ;)


The Maiden Metallurgist said...

Here's to a very long and uncomfortable pregnancy for you!

Ania said...

Lots of healthy and long pregnancy vibes for you!!

Stephanie H said...

I hope it is a long pregnancy too!!

Laura S said...

Yay, I do think you body 'remembers' being pregnant and balloons accordingly. That being said, I don't think you look big at all.

Cathy said...

Here's hoping for a long healthy bleed-free pregnancy. I SOOO hear you on feeling more prepared for what could go wrong this time. I know too much. It makes me paranoid. But it also makes me careful, and I guess that's good.

I like your bump :)