Monday, April 26, 2010

worry

Are you the type of person whose mind goes to dark places? Or are you able to see the silver lining in everything?
I'm a worrier. I worry about big things and little things. If there isn't something to worry about, I'll find something. I'm a worrier.
I have surgery on Wednesday, it's not a huge deal, but it could help determine if I will have problems carrying another baby to term and if there was a reason for Emma's early arrival. I'm trying to focus on the positive; being one step closer to hopefully having another child, but it's hard not to focus on the things that could go wrong. Not waking up, my doctors finding something not so good, them deciding I needed a full hysterectomy without asking me (which I know would never happen, but it still freaks me out). I trust my doctor completely and she's been fully honest with me. It just scares me that I'm headed back to the hospital that Emma and I spent 3 months at. I'm scared that everything won't be okay, I'm scared that they'll unearth a huge problem.
2 more days and hopefully I can stop worrying.

4 comments:

Leighton and Lisa said...

Thoughts and prayers. Hang in there and try to see past the fog. Good luck--I'll send positive vibes your way!

Janis said...

Hope everything goes OK, sending prayers your way...and we wouldn't be human if we didn't worry!

Anne B said...

Best wishes! I hope everything goes better than you anticipate

Rhonda said...

I'm sorry I'm a day late on this, but I've got the juju working overtime for you, sister!