Today we stopped by the pediatrician's office to pick up a letter for our insurance company. Turns out Emma's nutritionist appts aren't covered by our insurance and so we were getting a letter of "medical necessity". I didn't expect the letter to be a great one, obviously they are trying to make Emma appear that she needs the nutritionist appts (which is a whole different debate), but I'm not sure I can adequately explain the shock when I saw the words "diagnosed as failure to thrive" (FTT) and "malnourished". I freaking lost my shit. Seriously, in all the months and months we've been dealing with Emma's weight issues, the ONE thing that has made me feel semi-okay is that she wasn't FTT and to see it written like that with NO warning from her doctor made me absolutely sick. After a huge breakdown and lots of tears I called her doctor and it turns out they used that phrase because technically she can be FTT since she's under the 3% in weight and it makes insurance companies pay attention. She hasn't necessarily been diagnosed with FTT.
A note to doctors... DON'T PUT STUFF LIKE THAT OUT THERE FOR MOMS TO READ IF YOU AREN'T GOING TO WARN THEM FIRST!!! And I know them calling me back and explaining it should make me feel better, but it doesn't. I'm wondering if it's really worth the money we would save if our insurance will cover it to make me feel like this.