Sorrow

Yesterday a friend of mine, and fellow preemie mom, lost her dear son Justice (http://blakeybabies.blogspot.com/). There are no words to describe the pain that my heart feels for their family.
As the parent of a preemie I've become too familiar with the loss of innocent lives, but it never gets any easier. Justice was 20 months old and has death has hit me harder than I expected. He was in Emma's "class" of preemies on a preemie board I belong to. I was lucky enough to visit Tiffany and Justice on Wednesday and my heart broke into a million pieces yesterday when I heard the news.
I wish that no parent ever had to experience the loss of their child. I wish that no one had to feel that pain.
Rest in peace dear boy.


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Blessed

I have a mother

• who instilled in me a love of reading
• who has been here for me every step of the way
• who taught me what a marriage should be
• who is an amazing baker
• who has a head scarf to match every outfit and a bracelet to match each cardigan
• who loves my child more than I ever imagined
• who has become one of my closest friends and who always knows the right thing to say

I am a mother to a little girl

• who is 20lbs of personality
• who walks past the toddler and little kid equipment on the playground because "it's too small, want big slide"
• who spontaneously says "I love you"
• who is on a constant quest to find a pink airplane
• who runs faster than I knew a 2 year old could run
• who wants to do whatever the grown ups are doing
• who loves animals with an amazing passion
• who can count to ten but usually chooses to count "one, free, nine"
• whose favorite activity is writing lists
• who loves to pretend that it's "seeping" time. who will cover each participant with a blanket and give them a lovey. But don't open your eyes or your head might get shoved back into the pillow. Nap time is very serious :)
• who is fiercely independent, but still needs a kiss when she has an owie
• who has taught me that being a mother is so much more than I ever could have imagined. That even the darkest day can be brightened with a smile and a "I lu loo!"